chuka - caffeine = fraud?

I have a nonserious addiction. I attend a lot of hackathons.

This affliction became terminal when I attended BearHacks in Canada. A whole 3 hour drive just to get the chance to LARP as a 30u30 visionary and not the spiritually unemployed autist I am.

This trip marks a turning point, as before BearHacks, the longest I traveled for a hackathon was about an hour. But this sets a precedent that there is little that can get between me and a reason to whip out the sidtop and flex on some claudelets with opencode.

This is somewhat worrying, but not for the reason you think: it's because I didn't win...

Now this may come as a surprise to the 3 visitors (me, Nitin, and me refreshing the page) of this "blog", but yes. There are hackathons that I cannot win. The reason this is alarming is that it shows I am willing to go the extra mile to showcase mediocrity. Like, you would expect someone spending hundreds to attend a hackathon to *atleast* put their best foot forward, but I seem to prove a counterexample to that theory.

Is this due to my lackadaisical worldview? The masking of my own ineptitude? Perhaps the myriad excuses I have at any of these long-distance hackathons are more valid than I thought...

I don't have an answer just yet, which makes this all the more terrifying...